I’M DONE BEING AN ARTIST
HUSH involved durational recordings of me crying and holding myself for months on repeat. Alone, I couldn’t figure out the tech. It was emotionally heavy and draining to release so fully and have unclear and out-of-focus video takes. I thought “after this, I’m done being an artist.’’
I was part of CFAT’s Media program and once I spoke up Tori immediately arranged tech support with @shuvanjankarmaker - The lighting was flawless, the picture was clear and he focused on what I wanted to convey. What he supported in an afternoon eased months of struggle for me - I was very thankful for his visual understanding and help. It made a huge difference.
Funny enough, I didn’t record the final video performance with that arrangement. It was December, the centre was closed for the Holiday’s and I wasn’t sure if the equipment was safe to stay set up without me being there. I dismantled the whole thing and recreated what I had observed.
I am grateful for being part of several residencies; they were rare with all women artists, and they taught me a lot! They reinforced my own understanding of myself as an artist and the many faces of support and how it comes in unexpected ways.
When I hardly had any voice or energy left for this piece, Glynis Humphrey was there as a mentor and friend. This project would not have been born without Glynis. I am immensely thankful for her.
For the selection jury and CFAT for welcoming me in the residency in the first place. Tori, Sally and Tom always had smiles and cheer on their faces. Chuck was pretty instrumental showing me lighting tricks and sharing conversations in the middle of the night. And my ability to set up the film and lighting wouldn’t have come about without Shuvanjan. It takes many hands to support a vision, even if it looks different than what we thought and it’s a challenge, we grow that much more.
I’ll Always Be an Artist.
For that I give thanks.
And I will always appreciate
the support that is given.
Thank you CFAT for once again holding space for my sound, my vision and my presence.
Hand to heart,
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